5/24/12

A Fertile Gaze


I met you in the space between my thoughts.
You met me in the space between yours.
There was nothing to say,
there was no one there,
only a gaze into what gazes, yet
when the tremor of our silence fell
deep into the loam-brown darkness,
every seed on Earth received 

two wings.

5/23/12

Whence Light


No more poems about the stars.
This is the sound of the caterpillar
scratching her hundredth belly against a stick.
This is the hum of tested silk in a moonlit web,
reverberations of an egg
traveling inward toward the embryo
as the mother of Buddhas ruffles her void.
I speak not of the soul but of the body
who is God, the sexual electron
zeroing in on its singularity,
the glissando of This against That, the kiss
in whose sigh are ineffable distances
whence light may reach us with its cry,
“I love, therefor I am!”

5/22/12

Backyard


There are gifts of Grace in my back yard,
and yours too.
Thousands of ordinary Gods live there,
a galaxy of them in every flower.
I tremble to conceive of Her who dwells
at the center of the white peony.
I cannot even utter the name
of the goldfinch who sits in the pine,
singing over the smallest things.

5/21/12

Solstice

On the longest evening, I compose
an ode to silence, with breathless sigh
in green caverns of hydrangea
where sparrows rustle and doze;
with glistening ink of snail
who guided by moonlight inscribes
her patient journey over the rose;
I seal my poem with blue moth
settling on the peony's lips
like a first kiss. Just so,
summer comes without words.

5/20/12

al'Ruh


There is something at the center
of your breath
more holy than any ancient book.
Listen to that song,
then dance.

May Morning


This is the morning you wake up
trembling with delight
because you know you're going to run
barefoot through the wet grass
to baptize your toes in stinging dew.
You're going to kiss the dark light
of the earth with your body,
a mothering shock from sole to crown,
and through that kiss conceive the day,
the season, the rest of your life.
O choose which gracefully befallen
moment shall have no end!

Painting by Maggie Cross

Moment


In the moment of silence
our differences become beautiful
and unite us.
Just gaze...

This


You can remember a memory,
but you cannot remember being alive.
This is it.

Met

You were inside of me.
I was inside of you.
Then we parted
almost forever until
we met.
It was not this gaze, this touch
that we vaguely recognized,
but ourselves.

(For Dana)

Slip



Slip in and out of the lily, O honey thief, marauder.
Leave pollen to pollen, stickiness to stamen and pistil,

pressing hidden cries of beauty out of the ordinary.
Filch yourself from the unselved at a moments notice,
ready to unravel silver filaments of pure possibility.
Spacious as the light-year in a photon, luster the Earth
with a blink of your instantaneous night.
With scented antenna, with little feet dripping 
borrowed sweetness, sober in the crush 
of vintner’s art and bee’s craft, distilling nectar
of the very berry from which you refrain, 
O seducer of poems from the things they are about, 
yes you, Transparency! Do not forget: 
you are the imageless, the lens, flute-hollow 
before music gushes through it, tunnel in the bone 
where nothing remains but light untangling 
itself from what is not there.

5/16/12

Mad Elder's Blessing


Everybody needs beauty as well as bread,
places to play in and pray in, where nature
may heal and give strength to body and soul.
~John Muir


Young men and women, abandon your cars,
abandon your cities, abandon nations and governments!
Go to the village, and beyond the village, to the woods.
Leave Jerusalem: Wander through Galilean meadows,
among the pagan wells of Samaria.
Leave the palace: take off your crown and pearls,
dance with the cowherd girls and boys at Vrindavan.
Make your marriage bed of moss,
find the oasis of the river otter,
learn of the anthill and swamp lantern, 
kneel in the place where the elk shed their antlers 
dreaming of Autumn bugle song.
Leave the ruined towers, the bank vaults of emptiness,
erase the borders, smash leveler and compass.
Nature laughs at edges, she knows no straight and narrow.
Love wanders in fractals, and lovers get lost
in all directions at once:
they call their bewilderment "home."
Let your morning prayer be the motionless explosion
of a rhododendron into atoms of fire.
No one owns an acre, no, not even a handful of soil!
Cast a circle in your campsite,
but stay only til dawn.
Your zip code is the color of the blossoms you sleep under.
Every worker's heart beats out of the berry
you caress in the palm of your hand.
Eat slow, the way wind nibbles the mountain.
Become skillful in the brewing of teas that heal,
made from weeds in abandoned factories.
A vineyard of magical entanglements
springs up from every burnt place:
trust in time.
Learn root medicine from dangerous leaves.
Drink infinitesimal proportions of nettle and hemlock.
Never ride, walk everywhere,
softly on the earth as moonlight-driven thistle-down,
each footfall an uprooting and return.
Money is over: invest in the wealth of friendship.
Economy is this:
reduce your wants until you know your need.
How many pairs of shoes are required to take an evening walk?
Wet grass and warm sand are two vast sandals
fitted for your nakedness.
When it rains in the forest, seated in your cedar hut,
you are She, the paleolithic grandmother,
except for one spiral of difference:
you have a website with ten million hits!
One of you is village shaman, another midwife and healer.
One makes flutes and drums, one teaches children how
to sing plant songs and talk to trees like wind.
Yes, there are carpenters among you,
hemp weavers and weavers of spells;
and gnomic guardians of the underground river
of sacred information,
keeping computers alive with runes of silicon.
Don't worry, fungi will eat your father's plastic;
angels of bacteria will devour landfills
and drums of toxic sludge;
organs of the new technology entwined with liver and spleen
inside your grass-fed free-range body;
nano-music in the cells of your amygdala,
transmitting herbal medicine from Tibet,
Macho Picchu, the green ruins of Paris;
transistors in root vegetables, mushrooms of beryllium,
prayers, mantras, drum thunder,
cables of high speed access to God,
all mingled in your brown body, Villager, Voyager
to a new dance on the prehistoric spiral,
where magic chuckles with accuracy
and science nods in wonder,
where the market is faith and the barter is trust
and all debts are forgiven.
"Abundance, abundance!" cries the wren,
flashing through a golden beam among green layers
of ancient darkness.

(My photo: nurse log and red fungi in the Carbon River rain forest,
Mount Rainier, May 14, 2012)

Cancer Poem


When I discovered the lump,
you looked into my eyes and said,
"Everything will be all right."
The biopsy was positive.
But you gazed at me that way again:
"Everything will be all right."
Chemo began. I sat on my bed
wondering if I could stand up
without vomiting.
You sat down beside me.
Your eyes swam into mine
and spoke those words.
But in six months, I was ready
to give up. You said,
"Go ahead, give up.
Everything will be all right."
And for a year I whispered,
"I'm OK." Then I looked in a mirror
at cheeks like smoke that veils
the surface of a distant planet.
I turned away to meet those
gentler mirrors, your eyes.
The final night, I was
a paper lantern with no bulb.
On a morphine drip, I couldn't
wait for the animal in my throat
to stop sucking. You came
into the room and sat down
beside me. "She can't hear you,"
they said. "Yes she can," you said.
My eyes were elsewhere but you
found them and spoke: "Everything
will be all right...." Now the mirror
has become a sea, I live in waves 

of transparency. I swell 
with probabilities of light.
All day, all night, my gaze
breaks its lovely tide upon you
like this. I am
always whispering,
"Yes."